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Heartbeat Chapter 2

2008-05-25T05:44:28Z

Series: Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei
Chapter Title: Disappointment and Hope
Pairings: (This chapter) HagaxAoyama (one-sided), JunxAoyama (one-sided), JunxNozomu
Rating: T
Summary: Haga and Aoyama are friends but Haga's feelings are starting to run deeper than friendship. A love triangle begins to form and some people have to work harder in order to let their heart win.

Ever since Haga found out about Aoyama's feelings for Jun he acted differently. He teased a lot less, and when he did it was done half-heartedly. It had even gotten to the point where Aoyama noticed and asked him why he was acting so strangely, but Haga made up an excuse that he was coming down with something. And every time he saw Jun he would glare with envy, though he wouldn't let Aoyama notice his jealousy.

It happened again today at break when Jun pulled Aoyama away from their trio and talked to him seperately. Haga tapped his fingernail against the desk in a testy manner and wore an expression that was extremely rare to see him in, as his normally playful grin was turned into a displeased frown. Being right next to him, Kuniya took notice at Haga's state and leaned over, waving his hand in front of his face. "Hey, Haga." Haga was broken from his burning glare and looked at his friend. "You okay? You seem really bothered today," the boy in the bright green and purple shirt said. "Oh, uh, I'm fine," Haga said, resting his chin on his palm as his gaze traveled back to Jun and Aoyama. His eyes narrowed again. "Haga... Are you jealous or something?" Kuniya asked, causing Haga's eyes to widen and his cheeks to turn red. "Was I that obvious...?" "Uhh..." Kuniya tilted his head a bit and grinned. "Hey... do you like Aoyama?"

"W-what?! No!" Haga exclaimed, turning his head away in a poor attempt to conceal the truth. Kuniya laughed. "You do!" After another moment of embarrassment Haga turned back to him and sighed, gesturing for him to be quiet. "Okay, I do. But I don't want him to know, especially not now." "How long have you liked him that way?" Kuniya asked, intrigued that something like this was happening with his two close friends. "Several months... it's been a while." Kuniya stared at Haga, bemused. "Huh..."

They were both startled by the sudden return of Aoyama. "Hey, what are you two talking about?" the bespectacled boy asked, sitting down in the previously empty spot between them. "I-It's nothing important really," Haga replied, his heart getting that familiar sinking feeling again. Kuniya noticed Haga's expression and decided now would be a good time to change the topic, so he switched to talking about Ai yet again. That took up the rest of break.

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After school was over Haga headed to the spot where the three of them always met up, but one of the three was unusually late. Aoyama was missing. Haga was already starting to feel uneasy and when he saw Aoyama walking out with Jun he was disappointed that his intuition was correct. The two appeared to be chatting happily and barely noticed Haga as they neared him. Jun waved at Aoyama and split up from him, turning to go in his own direction. Aoyama turned to Haga and had a somewhat surprised expression. "Haga, are you okay?" he asked, noticing the unusually mellow look on Haga's face.

Haga blinked and broke out of his stare, faking a smile. "What? I'm fine, let's get going," he said. Aoyama cocked an eyebrow as Haga pushed him forward to start walking. After watching their little scene Kuniya looked back to find Jun standing beside the sidewalk as if he was waiting for someone. He saw Itoshiki Sensei meet up with him a matter of seconds later and Jun greeted him with a sincere smile. "Could he..."

Realizing that Haga and Aoyama were moving on ahead of him he jogged to catch up with them.

XXX

As Jun walked with Sensei, Nozomu would do most of the talking and would usually reflect the events of the day or despair about something silly or random that most people wouldn't normally observe. It was interesting to listen to the things he had to say; Jun found his teacher very intriguing and lately they had been walking together after school. He asked Nozomu if they could walk together only to understand him better. Nozomu was almost like a book; you have to really pay attention and analyze to get the story. And even before reading, Nozomu Itoshiki had become Jun's current infatuation. He had such a vivid and eccentric personality that it was almost natural for a boy like Jun, who loves getting lost in fictional stories, to be interested in.

He glanced to the side wearing almost a dreamy expression as he watched his obsession look blankly ahead while moving his hands in enthusiastic gestures, despairing about several topics. Nozomu didn't notice Jun's gaze of course, he never noticed, but Jun would keep trying to read him until he could open Nozomu's heart and find the way into it. He was in love with his teacher.

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The next day Haga caught Jun talking to Aoyama in the morning before class and decided to spy on them from afar. Since he couldn't do anything, he figured he'd try to find out just what Aoyama likes about Jun. He noticed that Jun was very calm yet casual and never touched Aoyama or teased him, just listened with a smile. When Aoyama talked he would look at him with a sincere face as if he was really interested in what Aoyama was talking about. The boy always seemed to be wearing a dreamy expression no matter who he was around though. "Perhaps he's a romantic..." Haga thought. It was highly possible since Jun was known for reading a lot and there was no doubting that he sometimes came across romance novels.

When Jun left Haga quickly made himself obscure and waited a while to come back out to make sure Aoyama was out of sight. He stepped out from the side of the wall and sighed, running his hand through his hair. "I wonder if Aoyama would feel different towards me if my personality changed..." Deciding he'd think about it later, he headed back to class.

In the back apart from the discussion, Aoyama was staring at Jun with a light blush on his cheeks, Haga was staring at Aoyama with his chin rested on his palm while wearing a distraught expression, and Kuniya was looking back and forth between his two friends. "I wonder if I should tell them... but again, I'm not sure if it's true..." He waited through class and when break began he took note of Jun walking up towards Itoshiki Sensei's desk to talk with him. He rested his hips against the side of the desk in a suave manner with his hands in his pockets, legs crossed, head turned slightly to the side to look at Nozomu as he talked. Nozomu seemed to be paying attention to him more than normal.

Haga and Aoyama took notice of the other student and their teacher, Haga wearing a slightly confused look and Aoyama wearing a worried one. Closeby, they overheard a student whispering to another something about Jun and Nozomu and caught the words "I've seen them walking together every day after school"

"Is that... true?" Aoyama asked quietly. Kuniya glanced at Haga then back to Aoyama. "I think Jun is interested in Sensei..." Kuniya told him, causing Aoyama to look at the two in the front of the classroom, feeling discouraged. On the other hand Haga's eyes were wide and he was suddenly filled with hope. He looked at Aoyama, then Jun and Nozomu, then Kuniya, and Aoyama again. The three of them remained quiet and shortly afterwards break was ending. Everyone went to their seats and class resumed.

"If it really is true that Jun likes Sensei... then that means..." Haga smiled in the faintest way, not wanting Aoyama to notice. He looked over to Aoyama with a more serious expression, feeling a bit emotional at the way Aoyama looked. He was slumping slightly, his eyebrows turned up in a disappointed manner. "I really like him... I want to win him over. I'm going to study how to be more romantic and not always act like everything is fun and games. I'm really willing to try my best..."

[ Haga's POV ]

And at that moment, that's when I started to change.

Heartbeat Chapter 1

2008-04-21T19:16:03Z

Series: Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei
Chapter Title: Unexpected Feelings
Pairings: (This chapter) HagaxAoyama (one-sided), JunxAoyama (one-sided), KuniyaxAi
Rating: T
Summary: Haga and Aoyama are friends but Haga's feelings are starting to run deeper than friendship. A love triangle begins to form and some people have to work harder in order to let their heart win.

School had just finished for the day and everyone would head to their usual spots, meet up with the same people, and head out the same way they did every other day. Haga, Aoyama, and Kuniya always walked home together; sometimes they would stay at someone's house to study or just hang out. Today Kuniya was going to persue Ai Kaga, his love interest, so he had to split up with the other two halfway through their walk. Haga and Aoyama were left alone to walk the rest of the way to Haga's house.

"Hey, Aoyama," Haga said, getting Aoyama to turn his head towards him. He swiftly grabbed Aoyama's glasses and removed them from his face, running off ahead with the pink spectacles and laughing impishly. "Haga!!" Aoyama exclaimed in an annoyed tone, speeding up his pace to catch up with his friend. Haga liked playing these games with Aoyama and never got tired of the way Aoyama would react. Since his vision was slightly impared from being robbed of his glasses, Aoyama ended up almost tripping a few times before finally catching up with Haga. Haga had put on Aoyama's glasses and smirked at him in a teasing manner. Aoyama just made the same annoyed pouting face he made every time, and snatched his glasses back. In fact, most of Haga's teasing was just for seeing that face. It was... cute.

[ Haga's POV ]

I've known Aoyama for a long time and we're with each other a lot. We see each other every day in school, are in the same class together every day and visit each other's houses at least three times a week. Our personalities are pretty different but we get along really well. I never planned on having these kinds of feelings for him and for a while I tried to deny them. But it's inevitable. I have a crush on Aoyama.

I'm not sure I even remember how it happened, but the way I teased him started turning into something more than just messing around. I began to find a different kind of enjoyment out of seeing the way he reacts to my teasing. He's just... so damn cute when he's irritated. I flirt with him a lot more but I think it's almost too similar to the way I tease. But that's okay, I'm not really sure if he's ready to find out. Plus I don't know if he's even like that. Although he never seems to show any interest towards girls... Well anyways, I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. I guess I'll just wait and see what happens.

[ /POV ]

Once they arrived at Haga's house and settled inside of his room, they began to unpack their things to start studying. It was a really boring routine for Haga, espacially since he hated studying. But as long as Aoyama was there he wouldn't be so bored. Only about five minutes into their study session Haga was already getting distracted. He started with drawing on the corners of Aoyama's paper to which the glasses-wearing boy would protest with shoving Haga's hand away with an irritated sigh.

Next Haga switched to running his fingernail across the sole of Aoyama's bare foot which was currently exposed and Aoyama withdrew his foot and said "Cut it out," in the cutest way. Haga smirked, resting his chin on his hands as he was laying stomach-down on the bed, staring at Aoyama. Aoyama looked up from his textbook and said, "Shouldn't you be working? I don't think you can afford to fail this next exam." Haga hmm-ed thoughtfully but responded with "Let's watch porn instead." Aoyama just rolled his eyes and continued working. It was his own fault if he flunked. Haga laughed, then gazed at Aoyama with a different expression, something perhaps a bit sincere although Aoyama didn't notice. "I really am falling for him..."

[ The next day ]

"Aoyama," a blue-eyed male student called, grabbing Aoyama's attention and turning around to find Jun Kudou approaching him. "Y-yes Kudou-kun?" he answered.

"I just wanted to thank you for helping me out at the library the other day. If you want, we're reorganizing a couple sections Thursday so you're more than welcome to help out again," he said, smiling.

"Oh, okay, yeah I'll definitely consider it," Aoyama responded, smiling back at him.

"Alright then, talk to you later," Jun said, waving and walking away.

"Yeah," Aoyama said to himself, waving gently back.

Haga had caught the two conversing and was catching up to Aoyama just as Jun turned away and left. "I wonder what they were talking about..." he thought, but didn't look into it too much. "Hey Aoyama!" he said, giving the bespectacled boy a firm pat on the back. "Oh, hey Haga," Aoyama said half-heartedly, opening his locker afterwards and rumaging through for some different books. Haga frowned. "Ah don't be like that~"

After putting yet another love letter in Ai Kaga's locker, Kuniya caught up with his two friends. "I just can't get over her, she's so cute! Yesterday she did the cutest thing when--" Haga and Aoyama ended up ignoring him after that. He talked about Ai all the time, and it was always about the same thing. Ai appologized for something silly and Kuniya found it adorable. They headed to class together as Kuniya continued to talk about his love interest.

Class was weird as usual, which could actually be considered normal since it was always that way. Itoshiki Sensei asked the class to write a paper on their life as if they had no dreams or ambitions, and where that would take them. Aoyama happened to like Sensei's assignments being equally as negative, but Haga found them rather strange and puzzling. Class ended and break started as the students rearranged themselves in the room to sit by their friends and gossip or text or whatever they usually did. Naturally, Haga, Aoyama, and Kuniya sat together. But today Jun approached Aoyama again. "Hey, I forgot to give you back the book you lent me earlier today," he said, smiling and handing it to Aoyama. Aoyama thanked him and they briefly discussed its contents, while Kuniya and Haga watched them talk. Haga was starting to feel a little uncomfortable but tried not to let it get to him.

When Jun left Kuniya scooted closer to Aoyama and nudged him with his elbow saying "Ohh Aoyama has a crush~" in a sing-song tone.

"I-it's not like that!" Aoyama retorted, blushing, pushing up his glasses in a sly attempt to hide his red face. Haga saw what was going on, and the look on Aoyama's face. His heart sank, and it was one of the most unpleasant feelings he'd ever experienced.

Secret Admirer

2008-03-25T01:08:17Z

Series: Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei
Pairing: HagaxAoyama
Rating: R
Prompt: Secrets
Summary: Bored and unable to sleep, Haga decides to mess with Aoyama. But when Aoyama starts to react a certain way, meaningless teasing turns into something more...

"I can't sleep..." Haga thought, rolling over on his back on his bed. Another figure laid next to him, fast asleep, facing the other way. Haga and Aoyama spent a lot of time together and often stayed the night at each other's houses. They were practically with each other 24/7. They were around Kuniya a lot too, but the two of them shared a signifigant amount of more time . Propping himself up on his elbows, Haga looked over to Aoyama's sleeping form. "I can't talk to him or anything, he seems to be dead asleep..." Just then, an idea came to him. A smirk formed on his lips and he sat up, leaning over Aoyama. He pushed away his hair to uncover his ear, then blowing into it but not too harshly. He paused to see if Aoyama would wake up but instead he saw his mouth open a little and make a noise. The other boy turned over surprising Haga, but his eyes remained shut. "He's still sleeping..."

Haga went into thought as he analyzed the pale-skinned boy. "He looks... kind of cute... He never seems to show any interest towards girls..." His eyes widened. "What the hell was that?! Was I suddenly showing interest towards Aoyama?" His gaze traveled away from Aoyama's face and down his neck, stopping to see that his shirt was pulled to the side revealing his collar bone. Haga felt himself blush. "His skin is so pretty..." Without thinking, he moved in closer and paused an inch away from his neck to make sure Aoyama wasn't awake, then experimentally nipped at his skin. "Ah..." He quickly withdrew and looked at Aoyama thinking he had woken up, but his eyes were still shut. He had turned his head to one side revealing even more of his neck and his pink lips were parted slightly. "I think I might be... attracted to him..." Haga thought. The moonlight was pouring over Aoyama's skin, making the fair tone appear even whiter. Haga lowered his eyelids and leaned in again, pressing his lips against Aoyama's neck. He started with soft kisses and when he heard Aoyama responding in his sleep he was driven to move further. He nipped and tasted Aoyama's skin which smelled like fresh spring rain. It was intoxicating... At this point he was ravishing his neck and Aoyama's sounds were causing a blush to rise to Haga's face.

He abruptly pulled away, panting and shocked. "I was just... kissing Aoyama's neck..." He could notice a light pink blush on the sleeping boy's face and his facial expression was different than before. It wasn't about teasing anymore. "I think I'm getting... turned on..." Breathing louder, Haga pulled the blankets off of Aoyama and let his eyes wander up and down his body. Aoyama chose to wear rather short shorts to sleep in, revealing his pale, slender legs. He cautiously ran a palm slowly up one of Aoyama's thighs, hearing Aoyama make some kind of purring noise that went straight to his groin. "I never noticed his skin was so soft..." Licking his dry lips, Haga shifted positions so that Aoyama's legs rested on the outside of his knees. He touched both of his thighs and Aoyama rolled his head to the side and whimpered, lifting his knees slightly. "You like that, huh...?" Yes this was wrong and extremely perverted, but Haga was already way past that thought.

His hands grabbed the bottom of Aoyama's shirt and slowly pulled upwards, eyes glued to his face to look for any signs of warning. When he decided it was okay to move on, he pressed his fingertips to Aoyama's white and soft stomach, stroking up and down. "Nnhn..." "You're so sensitive..." Haga blushed deeper as he felt himself becoming hard. He pushed Aoyama's shirt all the way up his chest revealing two pink nipples. He could see it now: Aoyama would open his eyes and see Haga sitting between his legs while his chest was exposed, call him a pervert, slap him across the face, and probably start crying afterwards. But something was preventing him from stopping. He didn't want to stop.

He brushed the tips of his fingers over one of Aoyama's nipples making it harden, then using his thumb to circle the nub. Aoyama made a different noise this time, a higher-pitched whimper which indicated that this was one of his most sensitive areas. Haga grinned mischievously and played with both of Aoyama's nipples, pinching and twisting and watching Aoyama writhe helplessly beneath him, spilling forth a variety of sounds. "Damn... I'm so hard right now..." "Aoyama..." he moaned quietly. He leaned forward and brushed his tongue over a nipple, curious as to how Aoyama would react. He drew the bud into his mouth and suckled, listening to Aoyama moan in his sleep. "Just listening to him is driving me crazy..." He released the nipple and sat back up, looking down and noticing a bulge in Aoyama's shorts. "I made him hard..." Haga's face got extremely hot. Horny and panting, Haga pressed his palm to Aoyama's crotch and got the sexiest reaction. "I can't take this for much longer..." He started rubbing and Aoyama's stomach muscles flexed and his back arched up off the mattress. His normally clean and neat black hair was sticking to his face with sweat and his face was flushed. Haga took in the full image, watching Aoyama's chest rise and fall with labored breathing and his legs spread, his head turned to the side and mouth ajar making him look very vulnerable. "Oh god, I've gotta..."

Just then Haga removed himself from Aoyama and got up off the bed, heading briskly for the bathroom. He really wished he would have gotten to see Aoyama orgasm, but if he stayed there any longer it would have been dangerous for the both of them. Flipping the light on and locking the door shut behind him, he fell back against the wall and slid down to the floor, hurriedly pulling his throbbing erection out of his shorts. He gasped loudly as he grabbed the hard shaft and started pumping it fast, closing his eyes and replaying the earlier scene in his head. It wouldn't take long... He envisioned Aoyama's body; twisting in pleasure even though he was still asleep. He imagined the creamy and supple skin that glowed in the moonlight; those pink lips which spilled forth erotic sounds and his dark eyelashes brushing his flushed cheeks. "Uhh!" Haga covered his mouth with his free hand and tilted his head back, muffling a loud moan as he came hard over his hand and stomach. His arm dropped limply beside him and he panted, waiting for the aftermath to subside. "I just jerked off to Aoyama..." After getting the feeling back in his legs he got up to wash himself off.

In the other room Aoyama had just woken up, confused, sweaty and panting. "W-what just..." He looked to the side to see Haga absent, taking the opportunity to stick his hand under his waistband and bringing it back up to find his fingers coated in sexual juices. His face turned as red as a cherry realizing he had a wet dream while Haga was there. Wait, where was Haga...? "And why is my shirt pulled up...?" He pulled his shirt back down and grabbed a tissue from the nightstand to wipe his fingers off. He picked up the dark pink glasses he was normally found wearing and put them on, about to head for the bathroom to clean up when he heard the clicking noise of the bathroom door opening up, quickly turning his head while blushing. Haga saw Aoyama looking at him and nearly fell over. "Crap... does he know? I'll just act like nothing happened..." "I uh... had to use the bathroom..." He awkwardly made his way back onto the bed. Aoyama remained silent, his blush becoming fiercer. "I was dreaming about..."

"He must not know... or else he would probably want to kill me right now," Haga thought. "Um... Be right back..." Aoyama said, keeping his eyes away from Haga and heading towards the bathroom. Haga would not tell Aoyama what happened, and Aoyama would not tell Haga who was in his dream....